Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Writing Prompt: A Magic Ring

                Zane isn't sure what it is, but it seems to fit his pointer finger perfectly. He knows it is a ring, that much is obvious, but he isn't sure what kind of ring. After all, it had come out of a box of healthy cereal, which had never had prizes before. It is heavy too, like it is made of metal, but metal didn't come out of cereal boxes, did it? He hops down from the chair at the dining room table and trundles towards his room, half-tripping over a red fire engine. Raising his hand up, he turns the doorknob and enters his room. Running to the bookshelf, he pulls out a box labeled “science kit” and tears it apart, strewing it around the room. Finding what he wanted he raises the magnifying glass to his eye and looks through it at the ring.
                It looks like the ring his dad wore on his left hand, grooved slightly down the middle and growing heavier by the second. Zane takes it off, setting it on the ground and looking at it again. It is dark in color, almost like his panda’s black fur, but it is shiny too. He likes the way it looks, and the way it looks on his finger. He thinks about putting it somewhere safe, but he wants to wear it again. So he puts it on, and waves his hand around, examining the ring from up high and down low. As he swings his hand upwards though, his whole body seems to lift and he finds himself floating toward the ceiling. He squeaks a little and then covers his mouth with his hand, feeling the ring’s cold surface on his face.
                He stops moving, hovering and he looks at the ring, and then points down, and he floats down toward the ground. With a little giggle, he points up again and the ring takes him upwards, he points left, and left he goes, he points right and he zooms across the room. The faster he swings his arm, the faster he switches directions. Laughing out loud he points back to the ground and lands back on the floor.
                “This ring is cool!” Zane says, and trundles back out his door toward the kitchen, only to see a little man, dressed all in blue, sitting on his table.
                “You are right.” The man says, a slight smile on his face. “It is cool.” Zane backs up slowly, and then, remembering the ring, points quickly back at his room only to find the little man in front of him again, his face only a few inches higher than his own.
                “I’d like my ring back.” He says and Zane can feel himself shaking inside.
                “I found it.” He says, hearing the shake in his voice. He clutches his fingers tightly around the ring, and the little man reaches down, pulling his fingers out of the fist and slipping the ring off of Zane’s finger and onto his own.
                “Just because you found it doesn't mean it belongs to you.” The man says, growing taller, and soon he is taller than Zane’s dad. “Now, run off and play.” And the man whips his finger towards the window and slips out. Zane rushes to the window and watches the strange man as he soars upwards. He feels his finger where the ring had just been, and he closes his eyes tightly, his little hands balling up into fists.
                Turning, Zane returns to the table, and opens the box of cereal again, pouring it out onto the table. Maybe next time he found a ring, there wouldn't be a little man to take it from him. 

Sunday, September 21, 2014

Devotions: Life of Moses Exodus 2:11-25

2:23-25 “During those many days the king of Egypt died, and the people of Israel groaned because of their slavery and cried out for help. Their cry for rescue from slavery came up to God. And God heard their groaning, and God remembered his covenant with Abraham, with Isaac, and with Jacob. God saw the people of Israel – and God knew.”

I had a moment this morning when this verse just popped into my head, the verbs which were highlighted in my study this week, pulling me into a genuine ah-ha moment. God heard, remembered, saw and knew. He hears us, he remembers his promises, he sees us and he knows all of the circumstances that we are in. He is a God of the details and he knows us intimately. He hears and sees us, he remembers us and he knows our deepest fears and desires.

There have been times when I feel like the Israelite's feel, groaning and calling out to God. Don’t you see me? Don’t you see what is happening? Didn't you promise that you would be with me always? That you wouldn't give me more than I can bear? This passage acknowledges everything that I think the Israelite's might have been feeling.

Yes – I hear you. I hear your cry’s and groans as you suffer. I hear your distress and your pain. I hear every request and every cry for help.

Yes – I remember my promise to deliver you. I remember that covenant I made with Abraham, I remember that I told you I would bring you out from the oppression you are now suffering.

Yes – I see you. The burdens that you are carrying, the weight on your shoulders, all of those dead babies in the Nile, and the atrocities that have been committed against you.

Yes – I know you. I know how you were put together from dust. I know your father and your mother. I know that you desire freedom and a chance to raise your family.

But what about for me?

Yes – I hear you. I hear when you cry yourself to sleep because you think you aren’t good enough. Or when you are lonely. I hear your distress and your fears as you pray, out of desperation or joy. I hear you.

Yes – I remember my promise. I will never give you more than you can bear. I will be with you always, and you are my child. I will never leave nor forsake you and I am your salvation and your life.

Yes – I see you. I see that situation you are in, the stress you are under, the way your brow furrows, or the tears tracking down your face. I see you when you are alone or when you are surrounded by others.

Yes – I know you. I know the plans I have for you, I know where you came from and where you are going. I know why you act the way you do, and what you can become if you let me help you.

God is so awesome. He puts those four verbs in Exodus, and within it is wrapped another promise. I hear you, remember you, see you and know you. You are my child and I am your God.


And I am so grateful. 

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Writing Prompt: Sound

                Kvette walks down the street alone, the abandoned and shredded houses staring at her with deep dark openings ripped into their shells. She had to be careful here, large predators liked to use the buildings to stalk their prey. She carries her refurbished speakers with her, tapping on them softly, trying not to let the shaking in her legs reveal weakness. It had been two days, her stomach protests again and she reaches up to pat it, her fingers white and trembling. She had gone longer than two days before although not willingly. She heads towards the houses, hoping to find something that wasn't completely destroyed. She was looking for wires. She still had speakers, but some of the others did not. The winds pick up around her and she curses, looking up at the sky, and the rapidly darkening clouds. The dangers of being in the heartland like this. Although she was safe from hurricanes and tsunami’s, tornadoes were a real danger at all times. Flipping the switch on her speakers, she curses again as the light doesn't turn on. Again, she flicks it, back and forth, back and forth, until at last the light turns on and she holds them over her head, tapping on her phone to call up the correct playlist for tornadoes.

                Popping a set of ear plugs in, she turns the volume all the way up and jazz music starts pouring out of the speakers. Then she crouches, in the middle of the street, and waits. Three tornadoes descend from the sky like fingers, meeting the ground and crawling upon it, ripping dirt and debris high into the air. They speed toward the town, and down the rows of houses. Things that used to be nailed in, but haven’t for a long time, speed upwards, swirling. It was likely that most of these piles of debris that used to be houses had never originated on this street, or even in this territory. Kvette crouches, eyes forward and down, arms starting to shake with the effort of holding the speakers over her head, and waits. The tornadoes converge on her, all three like hungry wolves and she waits. Then, the jazz music does what it’s supposed to. The first tornado seems to hum, the resonance of the music hitting it at just the right frequency and it lifts, slowly, off of the ground and over her head before setting back down, and rioting on down the street, the other two trailing it on either side. Kvette stands, turns the music off, and flicks off the speakers. She needed to conserve the batteries, there weren't many of those left either. 

Devotions: Life of Moses Exodus 1:1-2:10

                Studying the life of Moses excites me. Moses’s life was a series of miracles, starting from his birth and leading to his death. He is a man of exemplary faith and deeds, highlighted throughout the Bible for his faith and courage. But Moses was a man, with complaints, and needs, and serious issues. And the best part is, that Moses, inspired by God, wrote down his own story.
                What he wrote down first, is the story of a miracle, the hand of God at work in his life from the very beginning. He is born to a Hebrew family during the worst oppression Egypt has imposed on them, they are throwing all the baby boys into the Nile river. Yet somehow, Moses mother finds the will to resist, to try to save her baby. Maybe she knew of the prophesies where God had promised he would take his people up out of Egypt after 400 years (Genesis 15). Maybe she had planned the whole thing, the basket, the walking path of the Pharaoh’s daughter, what Miriam was to do and say, but it was out of her hands. The pity that the Pharaoh’s daughter had, the Pharaoh’s willingness to let her keep the child, these show the hand of God on Moses’s life.
                God created the circumstances in which a Hebrew boy, condemned to death by the Pharaoh would be saved by his daughter, raised first by his own family, and then by the palace, who would identify more with his own oppressed people rather than the life of luxury he had inherited through the pity of Pharaoh’s daughter.
                From the perspective of Jochebed (Moses’ mother), this must have seemed like the end of the miracle, and she probably thanked God for saving her son. But this was just the beginning. Which makes me wonder – what in my life has God been orchestrating, is still orchestrating that I just can’t see yet? I don’t have the benefit of hindsight to see where God’s hand has been moving to make me exactly who I am meant to be to fulfill his will and purpose for my life. Someday I will, and I hope I can look back at the times where I’ve struggled, or wondered “why is this happening?” and realize that it was God allowing me to grow, or maybe forcing me to grow, so that I could become something greater and fulfill his plans for me.
                God called Moses, raised by the Egyptians, to fight for his people in an Egyptian court. Who else was better equipped among the Hebrews to do God’s will? And we see the hand of God moving, even in the first few chapters of Exodus, the very beginning. God will never leave us, nor forsake us. He is with us morning, noon and night. His hand upholds us. He is the creator of all things and yet he is with us, each and every moment.

What are the plans he has for you? And in what ways do you see that God has used the circumstances in your past to help you become exactly who he wants you to be right now?

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Mount St. Helens - 9/21/13

I had the privilege of spending the whole day with a very good friend of mine on a striking beginning of fall day in one of the most breathtaking places I have ever been: up at Mount St. Helens. It was a gorgeous day, raining off and on, sure, and the clouds never really let us see the whole mountain, but it was sunny enough during our 6 mile hike along the ridge line, and the colors of the valley below us, so devastated 33 years ago by that eruption, were absolutely stunning.

I wasn't even born when the mountain erupted. My parents both remember where they were. I had thought that maybe 33 years would make it so that we wouldn't be able to see exactly what had happened, or to truly understand the aftermath of such a violent eruption. I was wrong.
 Spirit Lake still bears thousands of trees, floating, after they were put there three decades ago by the landslide that lifted them clean out of the ground at times to dump them unceremoniously into the lake. Apparently, this isn't even very many of them as the log flow covers over a third of the lake.
 
The Mountain itself has vein like rivers running down it from where water has carved away at the mud slides. And the valley itself is hundreds of pockets of wetlands from where the mud wiped away all of the existing river beds and created new lakes, new rivers and new ponds. And there are still hardly any trees. Just bushes, grasses, wildflowers, and moss.
 
It was one of those moments. Where you just look across the landscape and stand in awe of the creator of the universe. Who not only made the mountain to begin with, but knew how and when it would erupt, and then in his majesty, made the aftermath just as dangerously beautiful.

Fall 2013

I love this season. There is something about the air, the colors, the rain, curling up with a mug of hot liquid and a sweatshirt to read your favorite book. I love the way its dark and cozy in the evenings and the windstorms that batter the side of the house. I love the rain in the morning, the sun in the afternoon, and the rain again in the evening. I love the way that the mid-morning sunshine contrasts with the black clouds above, shedding a warm light that illuminates the world with a jewel-tone like glow.

I love the chill in the air. I love the way that when you breath in, it cools your whole body, and leaves you feeling refreshed. I love that I can go on my walks at lunch and not come back drenched in sweat. I love wearing sweaters and turning the heat up at work. I love making a fire and watching the flames flicker and dance against the glass front of the fireplace.

I love the holidays, the chance to spend time with family, and eat really good food. I love the traditions and the little tidbits that make each month special. I love decorating and baking, and carving pumpkins. I love writing my brains out in November and attempting to ignore the rest of the world. I love hot chocolate. I love Carmel Apple Cider. I love this season.

This fall, I have to remember that I love this season. I have to remember to be joyful and content even in this season of my life that seems like it will never end. I have to remember the simple pleasure of a mug of hot chocolate even as I sip it in my parents basement. I have to enjoy the fire for its beauty and warmth even though I have to displace myself upstairs to do so. I have to watch all of the Seahawks games in stereo as my Dad watches upstairs and we watch it downstairs.

Sometimes life can be frustrating and I feel like I have been stuck in this waiting season for a very long time. But it is fall again. And I love this season. And I just have to relax and enjoy these things that I love so much about life, and trust God that he will turn this long stagnant season into the next. And just maybe... it will happen this fall.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Thursdays

I am extremely blessed to have some of the most awesome Thursday nights ever. Thursday nights are worship team practice and for me, it means a chance to spend an evening in fellowship with some of the most amazing Christian people in my life, and spend it worshipping God. There is no better way to spend time. Also, it gives me something to look forward to other than just the coming of the weekend during those sometimes long hours at work. It is no secret that spending time with the creator of the universe and our savior is the best way to live, but it is also rejuvenating and humbling. It is a chance for me to ground out my week, sing my heart out, and play with abandon. There is no audience other than God. And even if I was tone deaf and couldn't play a note, it would be a sweet sound to his ears. Thank you Lord for Thursdays.